The Real Me

I've entitled this posting "The Real Me" because I want to start being real with all my lovely blog readers.  Since I've had this blog, I've made it pretty much a place where I can post pictures for family back home to see what we are up to.  I intend to keep it that way but I also want to express my thoughts, interests, ideas, and anything on my heart here. 

So for starters, lets talk about my heart, what things are important to me.  First and foremost, I love Jesus.. I don't mean that I attend church and sing in the choir and pass out tracks, I mean I LOVE Jesus with all of my soul.  I long so much to see the man who died in my place on the cross.  I long to have him wrap His arms around me and say, "It's ok.. I love you".  I long to see Heaven, to feel the warmth of it, to smell the fragrence that comes from being surrounded by Christ. 

I also ache for every person I know to have a relationship with God.  No, I don't mean attend church, I mean to KNOW God, intimately.  To not read John 3:16 and say, yeah yeah, I learned that when I was in Sunday School, but to hear the words.  "For God SO LOVED the world that He gave His ONLY SON, that whosoever believe in Him will not perish but have everlasting life".  When I hear that verse, now after having children, it is so much more powerful to me.  Could I give up my child, especially if it was my only child, for someone else?  Especially knowing they would be beaten, mocked, spit on, and hung on a cross to die?  That would be a big no. 

I also love my family.  I'm madly in love with my husband.  Sure, we've had our ups and downs, our arguments that went on and on but he is without a doubt the man God created for me and I love him more every day.  I love my children.  I look at my Molly and see so much of myself in her.  Sometimes thats frustrating but most of the times, it's great. She is already a mommy, cleaning the house, taking care of Daniel, asking me if I've read my Bible today and telling me my outfit doesn't look so good, haha! yes she does!!  Daniel is my quiet compassionate man child.  He is the same size as Molly but is so gentle.  My biggest problem with him is that he hugs little girls his age and knocks them over!  Then he tries to help them up but is so strong he knocks them over again all the while saying "sorry, sorry".  He is an independent thinker, and just sits and figures things out, much like my hubby :) 

I love life.  Yes , this sounds very cheesy but it's true.  I love exactly where I am in my life.  I wasn't sure if I would be happy here in England, being away from my home and family, from the comforts of the US and my sweet North Carolina, but I am!!  There is a time and a season for everything and this is the time and season for me to be here.  I was a little resentful of having to give up my career, my reputation, my achievements, everything I'd worked so hard for and become Bryon's wife (the plight of many military wives and mothers), but God has shown me so much through these past 4 years.  I adore having this time with my children.  They are only small for a short time and I wouldn't take a zillion dollars for this precious time with them.  I have learned to slow down, smell the flowers, taste the coffee, feel the breeze and live each day like it's my last.  No, I don't have this perspective every day, especially when the laundry is sky high, the dishes didn't do themselves like I wanted them to and I haven't had time to sit down and watch American Idol that has be DVR'd for days and just waiting to be watched.  But today is a good day so let's go with that :)